Lately I’ve been noticing something I didn’t expect.

Even with better boundaries, more structure, and more intention in my days… I’m still tired.

Weekends come around, and instead of feeling refreshed or excited to make plans, I sometimes just feel drained.

And that’s when it hits me—that internal tug-of-war.

I should be doing more. Seeing people. Spending time with my family and friends. Making the most of this “free time”.

It’s not like I don’t have my own list of things I should be doing.

Buying groceries. Washing clothes. Cleaning out my closet. Maybe even planting a garden. Getting our taxes done (tis the season).

Doing something fun and exciting with my kids—making those special memories I know I’ll never get back. Planning one-on-one time with my husband. Keeping the romance alive. Even getting the dogs groomed!

And even just thinking about it all… feels exhausting.

But honestly? I just don’t have it in me these days.

Between the kids, all their activities, and my busy work schedule, my week passes by in a flash.

Most days, I feel glued to my chair, jumping from one Teams call to the next.

Someone or something always needs my attention, and before I know it, it’s 2pm and I haven’t eaten lunch.

Some days I realize I haven’t taken a single sip of water. Let alone finding the time—or honestly, the energy—to get in a workout.

And while my job is rewarding, and I genuinely enjoy the challenges that come with it… I’m still on the verge of burnout.

By the time the week ends, I’m completely out of energy. Don’t get me wrong—I get that Friday “Fri-YAY” feeling like everyone else… but it’s fleeting.

By Saturday morning, all I want to do is stay in bed and do nothing. The last thing on my mind is making plans, getting dressed up, putting on makeup, and leaving the comfort of my house. My focus is on trying to recover before Monday rolls around.

And that’s the part I’m still learning.

The art of balancing it all.

How do others make it look so easy? Or are we all just quietly pushing through our days, weeks, months—even years—feeling this way?

Is it because I’m a Virgo and perfection is my weakness? Only partly joking… but these are the thoughts that run through my mind.

Why is it so much easier to just sit and scroll on my phone?

You’d think I’d have it all figured out by now. But maybe this isn’t something you ever fully figure out.

Maybe we’re all just doing our best to hold it together, to show up where we can, and to rest when we need to. Adjusting, season after season, as life shifts around us.

And maybe that’s enough. Maybe that’s where my life is in this moment. Accepting that I’m right where I need to be… even if it doesn’t feel perfect. 

Because right now, I’m still learning.

With gratitude,

Sonia